Photographer: Erica (@not.ricata)
Makeup Artist: Sara (@livingonzeedge)
Makeup Artist: Sara (@livingonzeedge)
"there's alot to be said about the girl that lives inside me. that didn't think she'd make it out of her family home. thatd always be living for others, and hides away in the corner of her room for a slither of a chance at being able to dress up and put on her silly makeup, before she hears a cry in the middle of the night and knows she has to hurridly put on a jumper to tend to her baby siblings because her mother was a woman who never quite knew how to stay, still. the girl in me barely knew what it meant to try and make new friends, because she was scared that if people looked at her long enough they'd see how wrong of a person she was. so she'd spend her whole young age convinced that she was only ever good at second guessing herself, and staring at the floor or else it would crumble before her feet. the young girl found her body capable of providing something for someone else, and at a chance of being loved/adored/held, only ever really using it to their benefit. she was timid, awkwardly loud and never quite new how to handle that without being ashamed, and ever afraid.
as you may have met me, this becoming less of the case now. the words that flow out of me are endless. and if im not curiously asking you questions, im looking at the sky, thinking about the next project, or keen to see myself in reflections. and sometimes when people ask me, how are you so yourself? I can't help but laugh, cause its only been a couple of years or so ago that I'd finally been more okay with who I was entirely.
that girl that lives inside me now becomes cared and loved more and more each day. with every project, every new person I scream with/scream AT/dap up, and every time I tell and CREATE. MY. STORY.
and from these growing times, came one of my first ever shoots.
I don't think other genuine, creative and passionate people know just how they have created the most pivotal point of my creating journey. especially from this shoot, the first of the bold and feral! from our family and personal chats amidst gluing glitter to my whole ass crack and more, my heart felt so warm amongst people that saw ME. and from planning online to bringing this vision to life, and being authentically themselves, they made me so much stronger to unravelling the determined, bright and wild woman that I am. therefore I dedicate this shoot to taking up space. to being so unbothered in being in other people's spaces. to creating and being undoubtedly raw in expression. To being,
CUNT."
5th of August.
˗ˏˋ ♡ ˎˊ˗ BTS DIGICAM MOMENTS ˗ˏˋ ♡ ˎˊ˗
˗ˏˋ ♡ ˎˊ˗ PHOTOS BY ERICA ˗ˏˋ ♡ ˎˊ˗
